A Depressed Girl and the Butterfly Effect!
I met Rajani (not real name) during a wedding ceremony. She said she was a regular reader of my website. We talked for some time.
She is doing her post-research (after PhD). Her husband is a highly placed medical doctor. He is having an affair with another woman (his fellow-worker). He drinks heavily. And whenever possible he harasses Rajani talking about her past love affair. She is not getting support from her parents too. Her male-chauvinistic brother had cheated her for acquiring the family property. “I would want to go for a job to avoid the mental torture that I am going through. But that would be an end to my research. So many years of hard work would go waste. Udayji, I am in a confused state of mind…”
The helplessness, no-hope situation, stress, frustration etc have really put her down. She is on some medication for depression. She has insomnia and some physical ailments like body pain too. “I am feeling very lonely. My life is wasted and worthless. Sometimes I get thoughts about committing suicide. I am really scared about such thoughts too.” She appeared timid and tensed.
“Do you know about the butterfly effect?” I asked her.
“It has been said that something as small as the flutter of a butterfly’s wings can ultimately cause a typhoon halfway around the world. A butterfly flapping its wings in one part of the world might eventually cause a hurricane in another part of the world. For e.g., a butterfly flapping its wings in Amazon jungle might create a Tsunami in Indonesia”
“Yeah, the concept that states that “small causes can have larger effects”. Okay, tell me, how many cells are there in a human body?”
Rajani ‘s eyes suddenly lighten up. It was her subject of study. She said: “At maturity, the estimated number of cells in the body is given as 37.2 trillion. Some calculations say that for an adult man weighing 70 kilograms has 70 trillion cells.”
“However, it is in trillions! And if one cell doesn’t do its work (karma) properly, what will happen?”
“Hmmm…Illness. If a cell multiplies more than required, it can cause tumor (malignant or not) or if cell start dying before time, it may end up in cancer…”
“Does the cell know that it is part of a system called human body and is connected to trillions of cells?”
“No…How can it be? It doesn’t have such intelligence. It does it duty, that’s all” she said.
“Yes, it doesn’t know its purpose of life. But, it does its duty or karma properly, hence the human body is well-maintained. We call it healthy body.”
“Now tell me, what is the population of the world?” I asked her.
“According to 2012 figures, the population of the world = 7.046 billion”
“Rajani, the whole world is a single living system like a human body. We do not realize that we are part of the system. We are not aware that we are all connected. If one person among 700 crores does not do his/her karma properly, the entire system will be affected. One cell can harm the whole body. One human being can create chaos in the system. And one planet can create havoc in the galaxy. The entire universe is sustaining in a delicate balance by the virtue of the law of Dharma (duty, responsibility and privilege). The force of attraction in between is known as love. If fluttering of a butterfly can create such a widespread destruction, what a human being is capable of? ”
“Hmmm. Unbelievable, but logical…”
“Our ancestors realised this – that’s why they prayed “Loka Samastha Sukhino Bhavantu” (May all beings everywhere be happy). They considered the entire world as “Vasudhaiva Kutumbakam” (The world is my family). Just like any creatures in this world, every human being has karma based on his/her Dharma. We have to do our karma. If you try to evade your karma, that’s adharma (non-virtuous). If your husband is not doing his karma properly, he should be worried about that, NOT you…He will get result of his karma…”
“Really?” I could see the change in her mind through her eyes.
“Rajani, you may feel lonely. But you are not alone. The entire universe is there for you – as your own. The feeling of separation comes from ego. The feeling of separation creates loneliness, fear and selfishness. The moment you realize the connectedness, you would feel happy and enlightened…”
“But what about these problems I face, Uday?”
“Rajani, every problematic situation in the life is a cosmic invitation to become better. Being sattvic life-style with proper food habits and thoughts would solve 90 percent of the problems.”
“What would I do now?”
“You are an intelligent researcher. Your findings would be of great use to the entire humanity. Not everybody can do the things that you do. Why does this situation appear in your life ? It shows you have a purpose. Most of the human beings do their karma, without knowing their real purpose in life. (Just like cells in the human body). They are not aware about it. Instead, they are auto-piloted by the conditioned mind. They never try to cross over or wake up. The existence provides situations in the life to wake you up from the conditioning. You are lucky and chosen, that’s why the existence shook you. Make use of it, and live a life with awareness. You are supposed to do this research. You have to focus in your karma, come what result may be. I can see things will turn to be good.”
“Will things be better for me?”
“Yes – things will be good for you, not your good, but the good’s good…”
A smile came to her face: “Oh, is there a good’s good too? Truly?”
“In fact, even for the truth, there have been three versions. Your truth, their truth and truth’s truth” I said.
She laughed: “You could have taken up the profession of a counselor”
“But, my karma is writing. I am aware about it. I am supposed to touch only few people’s life like that of yours who are destined to meet me…I am just an instrument. The existence knows some people need this instrument and it will send those people to me,” I smiled.
“Yes Udayji, I will definitely focus on my karma…” she appeared more cheerful.
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